I never liked being the one to say the glass is half empty...
but, no matter how much i try,
my eyes fail to see it half full...

I think I see it as "empty"
because, it's all SHIT in that glass
and the thought of it being full of shit is repulsive.



-fuck-
i forgot why i posted that pinky swear...

i think i was thinking about relationships.
not necessarily romantic, but just interpersonal dynamics
the see-saw, give and take that is human relation.

I don't think I fully understand
or embody
that compromise
is not the same as gambling all or nothing...


I'm m i s s i n g
those tender,
genuinely passionate
eruptions of emotions
I once dreamed about as a girl.

and you got the REST of me.

its raining again...
the fact that I might die if I sit on my fire escape
jst entices me to open the window and go take a seat.

you are not welcome here.

go see this movie, or else.



:-D :-D

fox?

ok.

it's about time I cleared this shit up
it's pissing me off.

I hate english, and other germanic language just as much as the next guy,
but damnit, it's MY language and I refuse to sit aside and let you people butcher it any longer.

FAUX is not pronounced like FOX.

FAUX- from old french, fals meaning "false", fake, not real, imitation of a genuine product.

FAUX is properly pronounced FOH, FO'.

so no more "fOX leather", "fOX fur" and more "fOH Leather", "fOH fur"... k guys?


THNX

is it too late for me to consider studying ballet?

gauged ears,
pierced tongue,
and dyed hair...

i think im ready to devote my time and energy to something like that.
it builds grace, discipline, and is simply beautiful.

after weeks of debating these shorts...

thnx amber rose!

:-)

______________________________
work is over
school is less than a month away
im feeling this solitary shit
trying some new things
not closing my eyes for a second.


2010!

someone is harassing her via anonymous IMs
I have no clue who it is...
on one hand i wanna give that person the biggest hug and high five
but on the other, those kinds of tactics do more harm than good and so not my style.
If ima curse u out, belittle you, shame you, u best believe ima do it directly.

things are ok i guess.
Im really excited about:
graduating this year,
about turning 21,
about living alone,
about leaving all the bullshit behind me.



PS:
Dominique doesn't take pinky swears lightly,
she found me on youtube. heh.

"I am doll parts
bad skin, doll heart."

"Do you have a youtube?"

so im downtown, christopher street, when i walk past this brown girl with glorious hair; natural, long, coarse hair...

she stops me and asks... do you have a youtube page?

and I say yes, and ask does she remember the name or anything...

she says she recognized me from the surface piercing removal video.

It made my evening. truly did.
She said she would make a youtube just to add me.
her name was Dominique.

How much fun are you having?

Six flags with Ny,Brae, Jdn, & Steph
was AH-MAZING!!

lots of roller coasters, dancing, running, gr8 convo...
there was even a parade and fireworks (we watched them from the top of NITRO)!
jst all 'round FUN!
haven't had this much fun in a lil under a year now...

we had soda pop in our souvenir cups,
panda express,
funnel cake,
and coldstone...


I was ruing the funnel cake after a few bites... lol

We took lots of pix yesterday and i hope to get them soon.

i got a message from my ex that she was at six flags yesterday
and saw me there with my lovely little crew...

just think, this is the biggest six flags in the country
how is it that she spotted me and watched what I was doing?
either shes a liar, or just that crazy.

I dont want to go to the police again,
after things are jst starting to look up for me,
but i will if these stalker-esque situations continue.
she says its in the name of love and worry and my own protection.
i say, she's been warned.

TO BE CONTINUED...