FUCK YEAH, LADY GAGA

Im just going to take a minute to blog about Gaga.

I remember that rainy summer of 2008 when I first heard of this girl.

I remember being instantly drawn to her blonde hair and glam couture.

Since then, I've watched her, along with the rest of the world, become a true pop star.

Many people have many different opinions of Lady Gaga,

where she's from, where she's going...
but when it comes down to it, that's the point; you already know who she is.

I was in one of my psych courses earlier this semester and my elderly professor likes to play music before she starts class.

She asked if anyone wanted to hear Lady Gaga.
I raised my hand...

She was joking, but still...

Her music wakes me up, gets me going, and puts me to bed.

Lady Gaga, Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta, don't ever go away.

RIP Alexander McQueen

COMPASSIONATE ENOUGH TO START CRYING...

SMART ENOUGH TO KNOW WHEN TO STOP.

-If someone asks that you LEAVE THEM ALONE...
you should LEAVE THEM ALONE.

-when the world tells you to LEAVE THEM ALONE,
you probably should LEAVE THEM ALONE.


both cant possibly be too far off the mark.


SMH.

Spin Spin Sugar

my head is spinning...

make it stop

I'm feeling nauseous...

i don't want to think.


JUST STOP!

I'm out of control, torn between with a should do and what is right and what is JUST.

WHAT IS JUST?

on my knees, crying my eyes out, arms outstretched...
a familiar scene... when will I learn?

I'm vulnerable and needy. what's to calm the storm inside me?

slow down...

"you kiss me like an over-dramatic actor starving for work..."


where's this feeling coming from?
this unmistakable foolish uncertainty?


I hate when my heart runs too far ahead of me... I really need to get that bitch on a leash.

Good thing I'm all too good at "playing it cool, boy".



Must be the stalking getting to my head again.

♥

These are the best.

I, you, she, he, we...

FUCK UP.


Thank you
for everything.

For the good times, the bad times,
my tears on your skin,
the miles we drove,
the blood in my mouth,
the pictures we took,
the bruises,
the things we bought together...
our fish.

Those same hands and mouth that gave me so much pleasure
also gave me true pain...
you taught me what it was to fail.
To GIVE my ALL
and still, undoubtedly FAIL.

You always kept your eyes hidden from me...
you must've known I couldn't see you...?

We all have our doubts
and our fears...
we're all a little sad and lonely...
I, for one, am soaked in my insecurities, I carry the stench of my memories in a flask covered in stickers,
but somehow never took that out on you or anyone else.


I miss those times when I wasn't afraid to leave my house, or post a picture, or keep my passwords, or go to meetings or class...

I hate that my memory of you will be a terrible nightmare when I know in my heart it didn't start that way.


And I wish I never met you at all... I'm sorry.
& you know how much I hate to apologize.



FML

Love and Life...

it's a journey
full of setbacks, fuck ups, and sometimes you just feel defeated.

Don't you worry, pet, the worst is yet to come.



If we had it all figured out, why would we be alive? conscious?

Although I find myself struggling with my general affect and tendencies and personality traits,
i embrace the fact that I am, indeed, alive.

I love it when I feel alone, it only means that I'll sincerely enjoy company.
I love it when someone's angry with me, it allows me to exercise my cunning, charm, and linguistic skills and possibly learn some!
I feel, therefore, I am alive, therefore, I get to love another day.

She's absolutely right.

I've thought about this and blogged about it before;

Jealousy and cowardice are useless and feeble emotions.

My pity has a short limit.

I'm much stronger than I used to be,

I can assert myself and separate myself from the things I thought I couldn't live without.

I'm alive, I'm alive!

I found myself on the tips of my fingers and my tongue.

Winter...

take a hike!

The groundhog results for 2010 is a shorter winter!!

EXCITED!

I miss shorts, tank tops and flip flops!