I really thought I was supposed to feel different...

I’ve let my guard down and put my trust in the wind.

But, nothing’s happening.

I thought I was supposed to feel relieved, relaxed, and happy.

I’m embarrassed and sad to say I feel none of those things.

I’m just going to keep telling myself that time will show and tell all.

It’s funny how things, they change, the clouds they part, rearrange for me

Faces of strangers and I have no familiars to help me see

Where is home?

I want you to know

That I wish you were here

I wish you were here

Sometimes I wonder if God hides out in cities to set us free

Cuz yeah this room is crowded but I am so alone in it, help me please

Where is home?

I want you to know

That I wish you were here

I wish you were here

I wish you were here

And I will be strong

I won’t give in

I won’t deny you

I know where we’ve been

I am so much more

Than all of my fears

Than all of these tears

My tears, yeah

I wish you were here

I wish you were here

Where is home?

I want you to know

That I wish you were here

I wish you were here

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~Stefani Joanne Germanotta

#If you dont absolutely love her we cannot be friends

TMI Tuesday? (late edition, hey, it's not Wednesday until I wake up later lol)

Oh well, fuck it, it’s more of a confession, anyway.

I’ve made all my mistakes this year, 2010.

- I intoxicated myself with substances in amounts I never thought I was capable of.

- I did terribly in school because I couldn’t handle my emotional state dealing with things beyond anyone’s control.

- I hooked up with my ex in an intoxicated, sad, & desperate way a few times. And I constantly lied about it.

- I lied to someone I really loved and wanted to be with. I will forever strive to forgive myself for it.

- I told the truth to someone who would only, in turn, take advantage of me.

- I don’t care enough about anyone anymore. I changed… still debating if it’s for better or worse.

#Personal