It was so beautiful.

I cried when I left the theatre.

I cried all the way to the train station as I tried to figure out what was happening to me.

I was content

safe

proud

reminiscent

saddened

angry with myself

angry with the world

Proud of myself
but so frustrated about all these things

These things I hadn't thought about in months

I wish things went according to plan.

I wish she didn't admit she saw me from the stage...

I wish we didn't catch eyes...
I wish she didn't smile for the rest of the song after that.

I wish her mother didn't recognize me.

I wish her aunt didn't ask me questions.

Where those her cousins?

How I know her? Since we don't even go to the same school? Let her tell you.

Yes, the flowers are for her.
She likes flowers... not just any flowers. Roses are so thoughtless.

It was around 6am the first time.
That window, right there, that's where the sun came in and kissed her while she looked at me.

FUCK

I hate this so much

I don't like thinking about this.

Stop haunting me.

The music has a whole new meaning to me now.

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Dignity LOST.